life is like a game. just that there is no reset button for you. you cant save at a checkpoint and go back to the checkpoint after you lose a mission. every second you're noticing, is the real present. history can repeat itself and on different people. but no one can change whats happened in the past. having regrets would only hinder your progress. getting depress and sad would only delay your progress.



to a certain someone, i do not know what you're going through right now. i do not wish to know cause I'm afraid to know as well. and i am most certain, i would be the last person you would wan to share your problems with as well. right now, i harbour no ill intentions. but if you're reading this post right now, ask yourself... Is he who you really need? someone who cant cheer u up no matter how much u try to cheer him up? someone who cant make an effort to understand you like how u really wish to understand him? someone who you try so hard to keep and yet he cant seem to be really bothered?
lastly, is he really yours to keep?



cause seeing you in pain, it makes me wanna die...
for this is the first that i couldn't extend my helping hand, especially to someone who i care for. I'm no hypocrite. because when it comes to you, i no longer know how to react anymore. i do not know what to think. i do not know what to say. i do not know how to help. after all, I'm not the kind who can just sit by and not do anything.

Oh by the way... came across this article on Yahoo!. Find it quite interesting because it seems that people can actually determine the gender of their unborn child! Like how some animals determine their offspring's gender with the surrounding temperature! check the link below to read the article!

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20080423/tts-health-diet-sex-children-c1b2fc3.html

My Rating of Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core...

100 out of 5 Stars!


Type: Action-RPG

Best PSP Game I've played so far! In fact, this might be the best game I've played in my entire 20yrs! This game revolves around Zack Fair, the 2nd Class Soldier who got promoted to 1st Class Soldier in the midst of the game. Story is actually before Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. According to my bro, there is one more which is Final Fantasy VVI: Before Crisis. So psyched! I can't wait for more FF action-RPG games to come!

The animation in the game basically consist of two types. The not so good, game interface graphic and the super nice "advent children" graphic! The ending is rather sad though. BUT the game designers are not that bad because, Zack felt liberated when he died. =)

My Zack end with 99'999 HP and can inflict a damage of 99'999 on enemy!

Today had lunch with Thomas & Eugene. haha! BOTAK!

Rank/Name: REC Chen Kah Kiat

2Weeks Freshly off the Tekong Chicken Coop.

Please take note of the stoning face!

see how many plates we ate? its not the quantity that matters. count the yellow plates instead LOL!

Everyday in life, inspirations are needed for people who got stuck or stop believing in their dreams. inspirations comes in many many forms. from a person who makes an impact in your life, to an item that is seemingly invaluable to others but highly sentimental to you. even people who you see or hear by media means, who leaves you in awe, would be enough to get you inspired.

watching the little girl playing the piano & watching one of the guest on the ellen show, i feel that most people would always unknowingly look on the negative side of life. giving out negative vibes and energies, affecting people around them. the guest said he looks at his abilities. so i think to myself, as much unfairness and inequality there is in this world, god still even things out and be fair to everyone in his own loving way, be it god, hindu, buddha and many other creators in different religions.

instead of taking taking a step back due to uncertainty, embrace the dreams we had when we're young. think about how much we always wanted to be what we want when we grow up. try not to restrict yourselves though. let go of our ego as well. cuz EGO means Edging God Out. watch the flow and try not to rush into something. as the tao teaches, be in harmony with nature. =)

UGLY SINGAPOREANS!!!!

DAMN YOU ALL!!!

DISGRACE TO SINGAPORE!!!

the title of garden city.... Singaporeans are not worthy of such praise! ONLY Singaporeans with the right moral values, the cleaners and the govt deserve all credits! People who pick up rubbish not thrown by them and people who dispose their own rubbish properly are people with the right moral values. throwing rubbish onto areas other den rubbish bins just for the sake of convenience is a very selfish act! Goes to show how much they listen in Moral Education classes. One of the people of a cleaning service company in Singapore actually said that "if Singaporeans are considerate, we would run out of business."

not only on the rubbish throwing issues that made Singaporeans ugly! for instance... Singaporeans using tissue paper packets to proclaim their territory on tables in a hawker centre! Singaporeans act sleeping on the train or bus when old people are onboard! Talking out loud like there is no one around! Spitting on the floor where everyone is walking! Destroying every public properties they can lay their hands on!

oh and the most common thing! it is okay for people to be "kiasu" BUT during sales, dont just try the shirt and throw one side when it doesnt suits you! seriously, with such an ugly personality, what ever you wear oso will not suit you!

UGLY SINGAPOREANS FULLY DISPLAY THE UGLIEST SIDE OF HUMAN BEINGS!

i will strive to be more considerate in the future and be aware of my every actions. =)

Today sick.
sluggish.
very easy hungry.

today go sentosa.
the huge houses there are preeeetty.....
so thats where rich people spend their money on.
well, enough of being amazed by these rich people.
gotta face my own music.

anyone got sugar mummy lobang?
i dont mind rich family's daughter!
touch my left hand, S$5k. right hand, S$5.5k. Left Leg S$10k. Right Leg S$11k. Kiss my face, $20k. I kiss the face, $50k. Basic rental S$100k per day (excluding interaction)

saw this video on taiwei's blog.
seriously stunned and touched.
almost shed tears!!!

sokting showed me a webby just now. i find it rather interesting!

http://talkback.stomp.com.sg/forums/showthread.php?t=15573

This person said "I think the maris stella high boys are the worst among the schools listed. All of the mshs boys I've met have a huge ego and think they are very shuai + cool!"

i would beg to differ cuz i feel that year after year, these boys are becoming more and more nua! haha. shuai + cool? do we? well, i wont be the judge of that. haha. it's either we're really that cool and handsome that this person is jealous.... or someone from mshs jus stole his/her girl/boyfriend. =X =P

as for huge ego.... let's face it lar. no matter where we go, who we meet, who doesnt have even the tiniest bit of ego in them? after all, boys will always be boys. so can't really blame us for having HUGE ego rite? but not all of us are likedat!! don't over generalize us please! bwahahaha...

these another one who said "mshs guys r jus horrible...........rich,arrogant,jus dun wana study everyday go kovan........bleahdont even lyk the sound of it"

• not all are rich for your info! even if they're loaded, their FIR! (Family is Rich)
• as for arrogant... in a rich way? or in a "i know i'm smarter than you" way?
• as for not studying, well, who likes to study? hahaha! =X
• everyday go kovan part.... so you expect our boys to hang out at jurong point instead? or maybe we shld all go to tuas or jurong islands after school?

Sunday......

BORING...

afternoon let bro drive car. first time drive odyssey, consider not bad lar. but very jerky. haaha. erm. den evening go chinatown eat. i've lost idea how long since we sat down all together to have a meal. very full. so much food!

Just now, fetch uncle home, he walk towards the void deck, he fell down. kinda shocked. den i hurry to him & help him up. haiz. mom very sad.

No mood to blog liao. haiz........

wah. suddenly my path in front seems really blurish.. for paper 2, i drew like a pri sch kid! OH LORD! i felt i really did very badly! i shldn't have use the colour pencils! i shldn't have use the crayons! argh. oh well. i've gotta use the next few days to really tink abt wad i've to do now...

=(

wah wah wah.. later in the morning! 0930hrs! admission test! abit scare ar! but very excited oso! haha. its like the point where my life will be taking a new path! =S

went to gym wif aiden today. gosh, hurt my wrist even more! pain sia! oh and i book my chalet le! $420! Cries* Worse thing, they did not give me the unit number! haha. zZz....

okay, i've no idea wad to blog abt le. hmm. thks guys for your blessings! gotta focus and do my best tml! i will make it! I WILL MAKE IT!!

I W I L L M A K E I T !!!!

FOCUS!

NG TIAN WEN! FOR YOUR OWN SAKE! PLEASE DO NOT FORGET WHAT YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO DO. FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS! STAY ON TRACK. THIS SATURDAY IS THE DAY FOR THE ADMISSION TEST! YOU CANNOT BREAK IT. YOU'VE ONLY ONE PATH. MAKE IT! MAKE IT! MAAAAAAKKKEE IT! OH TIAN!

YEAH! Spent a day at the zoo today! I couldn't remember when was the last time i visited the zoo before today. hahas =P

Reminds me of my nephew! so cute! haha.
i wan to go zoo. i wan to see liger, lion, elefunt, giraffe...

there is this ang moh who was taking photo of orang utan den a little orang utan lying on a tree branch, pee on his head! =X the ang moh was like saying "oh! he is very friendly!" hahaha. talking about warm welcomes... i wonder how warm the orang utan's pee was. =X

look how the EMU was resting!

i tink his name is inuya or something. doesnt inu means dog in japan?
white rhyme-nosaurus! haha. with the little bird friend on his back.
Planet of the Apes? Well...... somewhere there i guess...
Look at the beautiful coat! Magnificent masterpiece of mother nature, feasting on chickens.

He got BLUE eyes with PINK nose!

http://www.zoo.com.sg/

韓信, a.k.a. Marquess of Huaiyin (淮陰侯).

great commander-in-chief of 100 000 Liu Soldiers

don't play play ar... he is rather famous for these 8 Chinese characters, 韓信點兵,多多益善. While people would always say that quality is more important than quantity, I'm pretty sure he would beg to differ. For he, Alexander the Great of the East, make use of all he can get. He turned a quantity of 100 000 men into quality that is feared thru out his era. Superb strategist whose talent surpass the Great conqueror of his time. He is who i would call, a man of greatness.

so who says quality is more important den quantity? this fella proved to us that quantity IS equally important to quality.

Fun Hist Facts,

Liu Bang was asking Han Xin how large of a force, in Han's opinion, Liu could personally command. Han noted that Liu was capable of commanding 100,000 men. Liu then asked Han how large of a force Han himself could command. Han said, "For my army headcount, the more the better." Although Han then qualified his remarks by noting that Liu's strong point was "commanding the generals"

i wanna go to the zoo within this few days!
who wanna go? who wanna go??? ahaha..

anyway, today finally met up with yu hui. haha. treat me to makan mac. lols. it's been like... 2plus near 3years? so long!

okay.. aiden, this is for you.
韓信點兵,多多益善. u know what it means?

Anyway.... Maybe you can be an observer for a change. see how the corps and the people within work. feel the flow! you must be thinking. yar, i already know how the corps work. i already know the patterns of our men. esp the TICs. i can tell you, there is definitely more to what you have in mind. maybe you can try to work like teckleong a little? throw projects and arrows at the officers. then maybe you can try to study very closely how officers produce the results and how everyone reacts. so now, u must be thinking, how to? corps already so messy. if i jus throw things to them and bo chup, confirm even worse. its never too late aiden! before curing a person, u gotta find the root of the problem.

a good commander get his men to work for him. a greater commander understands his men and make full use of their capabilities.

to let the corps improve, know the flaws of your officers. find ways to cover each officers' flaws. place the officers in the correct department under the correct leaders of various departments. cross training of cuz is very good. but there is time to do certain things yup? pin point the flaws and attack the flaws. of course, u gotta balance with praising the strong points of your officers but remind them never to be complacent.

as for the TICs, if you're a good enough manipulator, play with their minds! make them work for you willingly or else, play with their minds till they lan lan suck thumb, no choice, gotta do.

GOMU GOMU NOOO...........GATTLING GUN!!

I am going to be the Pirate King!

It is easy for everyone to say they have goals and ambitions, dreams and hopes. It is easy for everyone to say they will go for them somehow. Would everyone be able to cast aside their life to achieve? How important are those dreams of yours? more important than your life? or it is alright for you to give up half way? When i ask if those dreams are more important than your life, of course, i definitely did not mean that you can just blindly give your life away for the sake of your dreams. Well, of course most of the dreams people have nowadays are not life threatening anymore. Unless you're living in a chaotic country, that would be a different story.

Right now, I'm kind of in the middle of nowhere. But the deciding moment is rather near. Apr 19th. this coming Saturday. make it or break it? do i have what it takes for NAFA to accept me? would i be able to be one of the selected ones? I seriously did not think of what i should do if i do not make it. because thinking that far ahead, is quite troublesome and tiring. Do i still go for it through other channels? argh. mental block!

However, all i have to do is to be the outstanding one among the other potential students-to-be right? Putting in all my effort will not be enough right? so, all i gotta do is really push myself pass "putting in all my effort" right? if 100% is not enough, all i gotta do is put in more den 100% right?

oh well, i'll just do what i can now and let things go as it is. it'll work out somehow

=)

wah yesterday get to drive a very bad vehicle!!

lousy ambulance! ohMyTian!!

4 Transmission Manual Gearbox

WITH NO POWER STEERING!

*Cries....*

nvm. lol. its over! haha

get to play with little teckleong! KAWAII NEH! Ji ke ai yi xia wor.. lol. keep saying i make the baby cry!! i didnt lor! =( haha. he got smile to me for quite a few times okay! anyway. very fun baby sitting him lar. so love babies and children! lol. of cuz, if they get nasty n all, it's not a pretty sight.

Lim tai tai said that i can build up on my portfolio and send her some copies, she can help me get freelance job! lol. yeah! haha. so motivated to draw again! now whats left is inspirations to fill up the blank papers! =)

hmm. had dinner at Kovan. quite fun i guess. though i always cant click with Aiden's joke thru out the whole day! arh.. old le old le.. aiden, we got generation gap le... hahaha.. =P

guess what? i jus had a cup noodle. FAT FAT FAT FAAAAT.... ="(

very good.

dunno why recently i keep wanting to say "very good"

anyway. hmmm..

as long as we keep moving, things will work out somehow. i'm not saying physically. more like, both physically and mentally. dwelling in the past will slow down or even stop your pace. though we gotta be an observer once in awhile, to see how things flow naturally, doesn't mean we stop. In fact, we still keep moving on. Being an observer will allow us to look at things from many other different points of views. u may or may not like what u see but that's how things are. depending on how fast u can adapt and accept, the more successful u'll become.

many people would misunderstand me for being naggy or long winded and often have many reasons to try counter things that people see in their own ways. Of cuz i wont deny sometimes i do give excuses or "reasons" to try write off things that i try to defend myself against. (obviously, i know what i am doing. jus that it's fun to argue back when i've the mood =P doesn't mean i do not know i am wrong to begin with ;))

ultimately, i'm jus trying my best to offer many other different point of views to people who seem to have trouble "seeing" things in other ways. so please try not to take it too personally because i'm jus offering views from "blind spots" that you guys have fail to see. (please note at this point, i stress once again, i'm no saint! i make mistakes and overlook things too.)

being able to offer advises, different perspectives and views, doesnt mean i can see them or detect them when i'm dealing with problems myself. normally i would prefer people to not beat around the bush and jus go straight to the point and tell me. spare me the fancy talks becuz i know quite a fair bit of them. hahas. yup....

i'm quite a stubborn bull as my star sign is at times. so please tahan ar. tahan. =)

NISSAN GT-R
Engine: 3.8L VR38DETT twin-turbo V6
Transmission: 6-speed dual clutch
Layout: Front Engine 4WD
Platform: Premium Midship
Predecessor: Nissan Skyline GT-R

Heart of the GT-R

Nismo tuned GT-R
Whooping 4.5L, V8
6 Spd Sequential Manual Transmission
RWD layout

smile when you're happy.

smile when you're content.

smile when you're hurt.

smile when you're sad.

smile when you're gloomy.

smile in the face of danger.

smile in the face of uncertainty.

smile in the face of unjust.

smile in the face of death.

smile even when the world is falling apart.

smile even when you know nothing is going smooth.

endure. grit ur teeth. smile =)

as long as you live and smile,

good things will come to you.

breath in breath out breath in breath out.

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i need to stay calm, i'll be fine. i'm happy, i will be happy. it is okay, everything will be fine.

smile smile smile smile smile.

I've had a very unproductive day.

jus a few moments ago, i felt really sad.

i wont say the reason though.

it hurts.

wads gonna happen tomorrow?

wads gonna happen the day after?

wads gonna happen on apr 19th?

i noe that

worrying about the future is useless.

thinking about the past is futile.

the flame on the candle in my box is flickering.

Xan's bingo book:

code red pirorities for upcoming days APR to MAY.

#1 audition on Apr 19th @ NAFA.

#2 chalet for my 21st birthday.

speaking wif jeremy today, i feel so unmotivated to celebrate my 21st birthday. i feel so alone. are my friends really dependable? am i important to my family? can i count on them in times of need? oftenly, i do not dare to approach them when i need help to complete tasks. i fear they would not be there for me. i fear they would jus brush me off with excuses. as much difference as we all are, i can swear upon my name, in times of need i would sacrifice all i have for the sake of my family and friends. my money, my life, my future. pple might think, talk cock lar. no one is so stupid. den so be it, i'm the stupid one. i often tell my friends, call me anytime when u get into trouble. my hp is on 24/7. even at 3am, i will do my best to wake up and pick up the call. when i say that, i meant every word i say. i choose to believe to treat people as how i hope to be treated. hoping one day i would find people who would go thru great lengths for me as i would do for them.

Wahs... tiireed!!! okay let's see....

Sunday was surprisingly interesting. woke up at 6plus. wash up and went to have breakfast with Ms Gui! haha. great breakfast! glad she liked the breakfast too! den afterwhich, gave her a lift to bedok. hahas. almost bang into her =X

went home to rest for awhile...

set off to meet up wif a doctor-to-be 6yrs later, for a movie.. Waterhorse! haha. very nice show!! we enjoy the show a loooot! hahaaaa... den went for bowling which was great too! won her by ONE POINT! haha. i ended the 10th with a strike and 2pins. which tyco-ly help me lead by ONE POINT! lol. now she's saying that her muscles are still aching! haha. stretch stretch! =) oh and ar.. i am very very happy that you enjoy the day! haha.

kinda fell aslp quite early! woke up twice. haha. as expected, disoriented from time! i thot 4am was 11pm. =X

Monday. went for dreamweaver course in the morning! before that, drove my aunt and grandma to TTSH for grandma's INR check up. den went straight to tiong bahru. oh guess how many ERPs i went past? THREE!!! in one morning, THREE!! OH TIAN! anyway, the course is very bored... den my terminal got server problem. so do liao oso dunno right or wrong. zZz... end at 4pm. go back to office. den come home wif dinner for bro. den bathe den now blogging. den ending blog soon. cuz need to go office AGAIN. fetch uncle and work after tat.. haha. zZz...

what is good without bad?

what is hardworking without laziness?

what is improvement without bad results?

what is justice without evil?

what is thin without fat?

what is fair without unfair?

what is possible without the impossible?

with every goodness in life, there will be a counterpart that goes along with the goodness. How do you know what is good if there is no bad to bring out the contrast of goodness? this is balance. i do not believe that there will ever be a utopia where all evil is exterminated and only goodness if left. this would tip off the balance of nature. without evil, will there be a need for law enforcers? would the law enforcers be define as the "good guys" in our eyes? they would be either jobless or wasting tax payers' money. which in turn becomes scums of society and there you go! instant negative beings that will restore the balance.

ARGH! so many shows i wanna watch and some are going to finish soon!

-The Spiderwick Chronicles

-Shutter

-Rule #1

-The Orphanage

-The Water Horse: Legend of the Deep

-Semi-Pro

-Slam

-The Bucket List

-Three Kingdoms: Resurrection of the Dragon

-Rogue Crocodile

-An Empress and The Warriors

Right now, i'm neither feeling positive nor negative.
very interesting feeling.

This morning was great cuz i brought ody to have his "SPA".
SHINY!! sPArKLY!! niiiccee!
Aiden TKP! keep looking at OLs! worse... he look at sec sch gals!
=X hahaha.. i tink he'll kill me if he reads this post. >_<

This afternoon was nice cuz went for a haircut!
Applied member there. Hairdressers are pretty good!

This evening was great cuz dine with Ms Gui!
dinner @ KimGary something something....
Shop for her wallet, nth came up.
Shop for my 3/4. bought nth as well.
End up stay in adidas for so long! She bought smth.
sent her home & i went to office.
Loves to chill out with her!


people often say "god gives us 2ears and 1mouth so we would listen more than we talk". What are your views?

Because i feel that humans have 2ears and 1mouth with one simple reason. We only have ONE mouth, losing it means losing the ability to speak. So we should value the words we speak to each other everytime by making every conversation meaningful. We have TWO ears so we could listen carefully to every word that is spoken to us and not let any part of the meaningful conversation slip away.

wah today my aunt's church friends come visit my grandma den as usual, try to talk me into becoming a christian. As always, i feel that the way they approach me will only make me reject them even more. ANYWAY...

RELIGIONS....

Does it really matter which religion i belong to? IF i'm a taoist by birth, i become a christian when i grow up, doesnt that mean i betray my religion? haha. do not worry, i'm not a pro taoist fella. in fact, i figure that...... why bother choosing sides now? i do not have any idea which god is true and after i die, is there really heaven and hell? there was a post on my blog earlier, about quotes from Dr Wayne which is what i believe all along.

*Link to blog post*

i would rather worry about these religious details when i die and concentrate on what i can do in this life time. be christ like & be buddha like. instead of preaching kindness and goodness, practice them and people will one day, in turn, practice them too. I sound like i'm a very good guy? haha. i'm the worst there can ever be. because i've sins like every other human beings and i do not practive kindness, love, concern and peace everytime. But time to time, i try my best to remind myself to do so. I could no longer undo my sins nor do i noe how i could atone for them. only thing i can do is to look forward and do good whenever i can.

SO, is religion really so important? if i do not strongly believe in one, does that mean i've no faith? i've faith. faith for what i dream to do. faith for what i hope to do. faith for wad i believe in. faith for a better future of this world.

there come times when people just gotta sit down and think.

Is blindly following just enough?

But there will be cases where people would act upon their own initiative. Of course mostly, out of good will, but end up messing up. Hokkien people often say "kiang jiu ho, mai gei kiang." But from where I see, this doesn't mean you no longer take initiative. It just goes down to the word "depending". Depending on situation, if one is not 101% sure, try to seek advise before acting.

Watch Neon Genesis Evangelion - Movie today. nice CGI!

alrite! the present is safely delivered to sokyee! haha. enjoy gal!

wah. sick. i go see doctor today lor! and i thot that after i ORD, i wont need to go see doctor anymore! oh well..... $40 sia.. sians....... and this is the first time i feel that i do not need MC! OhMyTIAN!! haha... nvm. there is always a first time for ALMOST everything...

step up 2 today! mmmm.. mmmm.. mmmmm.. apple bottom jeans, jeans! haha.. nice slick moves! but i tink the story line is not as good as the first...

Food for Thought...

People with greatness are those who dream for themselves AND dream for others. Some people pin their hopes and dreams on those great people. these are people who sees their dreams in the eyes of those who possess greatness.

can someone nurse me back to health?

*sniff sniff cough cough*

y does one breaks another's dreams to achieve one's goal?

Gerwyn says "ans is : cos one got to achieve his goal"