it seems everyone is really hot on the recent advertisment by one of the govt organisation. beautifully imperfect? haha! sounds very familiar to me. everything in these world is beautiful because of how imperfect they are. it is the flaws and the constant striving to achieve perfection that makes everything so beautifully unique. may not be the same exact message as the advert but that was what I always believed in, quite awhile ago. i even blogged abt before if i rmb correctly. maybe thats why i'm not so into this advertisement though i must say it is a really good advertisement.

how did this world come about? random numbers and strings of chemical compounds? what about emotions? we all know emotions are what made us human, human. but what are emotions made out of?

constant fear of death (to oneself/to others). fear of saying the wrong things at the wrong time. fear of offending someone. fear of getting a speed ticket. fear of roaches in the kitchen or bedroom or toilet. fear of the sun running out of fuel. fear of the earth's resources depleting. fear of one half cheating on the other. fear of failing exams. fear of pain. fear of failure. fear of strange unknowns. fear of conspiracies. fear of economy going down. fear of going to the army. fear of bankruptcy. fear of fear.

so much fear so much hope so much useless struggles. so much people getting rich so much people getting poor. so much people being borned so much people dying. so much cars on the roads so much ERPs with so much rates at so much different timings. so much idiotic thoughts so much idiotic beliefs so much religions so much different versions of the stories so much evidences of so much lame stuff.

what is real? what is fake?
what are we really? what do we have to do? reconnect with the dao? have faith in jesus christ? pray to allah? read scriptures for buddha's teachings? what about shinto? what about hinduism? what about cults? what about so much more "beliefs"?

who do we really are?
what is this big yet small planet call earth? what is beyond the galaxy? another galaxy? are what the scientist and astronauts saw, the real deal? if so, what is beyond the "universe"? or are we just like the movie, men in black? that we're just a tiny marble of another "super being" duy's marble collection?

Can i say that i am tired? everyone would definitely tell me, yeah, i'm more tired than you. but i'm tired. i'm tired that i cannot feel tired. or at least i cannot "say" i feel tired because people will claim to be more tired. initial intention of proclaim "i'm just tired", quickly becomes a contest to see who is more tired than the other.

I've no fear over death. I've fear over the pain I might have to endure, depending on how I die. I've no problem talking about myself being dead. Because, as much as I would worry about the people around me, deep down, I know that there is nothing I can do. Does the laws of the universe really attact more of what I always think? oh well.

everytime after such posts, I would end up concluding the thing with, who knows all these stuff. Let's just live life as much as we could. I do not want to survive. I wan to LIVE. and it all goes back to square one again.

Lastly, I would leave myself with one question. "why do i always have to think so much? of the things that are deem unnecessary by most of the adults around me." haha. ahh the irony of life. shitty shitty shitty.

I want to go faster.
I want to look out and see that everything is blurred.
I want to go so fast that my senses are heighten to the max.
I want to go so fast that even I couldn't believe myself.
I want to go so fast that glasses will shatter.

People often fear things they do not know of.
They often fear things they cannot figure out.
I fear things that cannot be seen by the naked eyes.
I fear the complexity of inter-human relations.
Because I fear, I've always wanted to study psychology.

With the existence of dawn, comes the need for dusk.
Like fire to water.
They can't meet but cant survive without each other.

Even

After

All this time

The sun never says to the earth,

"You owe Me."

Look

What happens

With a love like that,

It lights the

Whole

Sky.

-Hafiz

there are many things people want to be.
there are many things people want to do.
there are many things people want to have.
there are many things people want because they can't get.

of cause, with black, comes white.

there are many things people want to be but can't be.
there are many things people want to do but can't do.
there are many things people want to have but can't have.
there are many things people want because they can't get and they still couldn't get what they want.

There are also stuff that people want, they got them and they let them slip away.
I did not realise that there are things I simply can't have.
Either did I realise that I can't get back what I've let slipped away.
I've submitted myself nature.
Content with the material things I have and can have.
Do my best to get and use only things I need.
Get use to not having the what I've lost.
If they're mine to have, they will come back to me naturally.
Without much intention or deliberate acts.

Live life with complex simplicity.

It is time to get back to work. no more foolin around. just pure pleasure under pressure.

do not know what to say now.

it is best to remain silent.

Number 24.
nombre vingt quatre

12 x 2
48 / 2
12 + 12
48 - 24

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