I do not understand.
I cannot comprehend.
I do not like this feeling.
Not even the slightest bit.

arh. finally more comfortable.
find the adidas skin too dark.
very emo.

simplicity is still the best.

道德经 - 第三章

不尚贤，使民不争；
不贵难得之货，使民不为盗；
不见可欲，使民心不乱。
是以圣人之治，虚其心，实其腹，弱其志，强其骨。
常使民无知无欲。
使夫智者不敢为也。
为无为，则无不治。

Putting a value on status will create contentiousness.
If you overvalue possessions, people begin to steal.
By not displaying what is desirable,
you will cause the people's hearts to remain undisturbed.
The sage governs by emptying minds and hearts,
by weakening ambitions and strengthening bones.
Practice not doing....
When action is pure and selfless,
everything settles into its own perfect place.

Yesterday is a day filled with jittery bugs =S The nervousness almost killed me. *laughs* But, no matter how it started or ended, it still feels good and comfortable. It feels good to be around her. What is going to happen in the future? I have no idea. I can choose to not give up but all of these just isn't up to me. Maybe for all we know, this chapter would just end together with the day. What can I expect? I would not dare to hold any thoughts or hopes. WELL! No matter what, I'm just glad things happened the way they were yesterday. Deep down, I still feel the same way. Many things may have changed over the course of time but some things remain the same. Waiting is no issue for me.

There's a saying that goes
天下之大，合久必分，分久必合。

I believe that there is eternity. Just that when things are left to the hands of man, eternity becomes almost impossible. I'm not getting religious here. The eternity I meant, simply just means eternity.

ever felt that you're searching for something and it just doesnt come to you? No matter what you're seeking, you just couldn't find it. Especially answers.

Truth is a very weird thing. It changes according to different people. What you see as the truth might be lies to others. Like the idom "One man's meat, another man's poison". Maybe because we all subconciously have our own set of "truth" that doesnt allow us to accept another set of "truth" till somehow we're convinced by that "another set of truth".


I no longer know what is right nor wrong nor what to believe. Is it worth living? I only know it is so tiring to guess what people are thinking and to guess what is real what is fake.

It's not everyday everyone nor everytime that 2nd chance comes by and yet cherishing usually happens only after something is lost. heartaches and helplessness usually follows after lesson is learnt. what can i do? standby and watch as days go by..

absence does not make the heart grows fonder. it manifests like a deadly virus, defeating everyone who are not strong in the mind.

I use to say I forgive but I never forget. I hate it. Not because I intentionally remember but I couldn't forget. I do not know what will become of me. I only know as much as I do not want to live with regret, I gather more than I can ever chew.

Life is not a cruel joke. The way people evolve is a cruel joke...

okay lar! i cant be bothered already. change until sian..
anyway, yar. new link new skin.
doesnt really mean new attitude or new outlook in life. haha.

I still find theres no meaning in life.

people dying when their time comes, living behind legacies and things that are suppose to help "future generations".. We're still destroying the earth more than saving it. We bluff ourselves by saying we can prevent. In the end, everything is just going to end. I'm just lucky enough that I do not need to experience or see oit for myself. Earth will lose all it natural resources and the ozone will be gone soon. the sun would burn up and what is going to happen next? haha maybe i'm thinking too far...

so... yar. new blog... skin. lol