Well. enough of getting officially pissed off...

@ abt 0300hrs, i walk home from the office, i figured that i need a slow walk to calm myself. dad stop by on the way but i rejected his offer to drive me home. i was thinking at that time that i've legs, i can walk. couldn't you guys understand i need some time to myself? leave me alone for that while alrite? i felt a need to find back the source of my inner peace.

@ abt 0325hrs, i reach home and stop at the lift. i hesitated and decided to have a lollipop and enjoy the cooling breeze. i realise there are so many bats at nite & i remember the times she sat at the bench and waited for me to get ready. nostalgic moment. i smiled to myself.

@ abt 0358 hrs, i came home and had a deep breath of the air at my home. indeed my grandma had another terrible night. i took off my SBO items (Standard Bring Out) & headed to the room wanting to light the white rose aroma therapy thing for the house. i was very shock when i saw ah ma hugging onto my table. i switch on the light and ask wad happen. she is sweating so profusely! her voice trembles so much. i tried to help her onto the bed but she couldn't move her right leg. i called my house using my hand phone to wake my mom. she got hold of her and i bring the chair in. we help her onto the chair. called 995. after routine check up, they brought her along with my mom to TTSH A&E. i drove ody down. i thot they would've reach first so i travel avg 100km/h. top 120 ~ 130km/h to TTSH. end up, they arrive 5mins after i did.

the whole saga ended around 0510hrs. grandma, as expected by my mom, hospitalized. mom arrange to put her in C class ward. reason being that this stay might drag. so an "open" 6bed Ward for grandma. well, after thinking abt it for awhile, it'll be better for her i guess. grandma likes to be around people. i'm always so afraid of her getting depression yet i cant deny the fact that i'm gettin easily agitated recently.

@ abt 0630hrs, i've decided not to sleep today.

because of my negligence, i've brought her harm. i've failed as a grandson because i never take care of her properly. i'm the one who suggested that she stay at our home so we could take care of her everyday. yet i become so impatient with her. i'm such an idiot.

I take this chance to sincerely thank SGT Jonathan & his team from "213". i heard from him that despite being on leave, he return to his station for duty. very commendable display of duty first before pleasure. reminds me of my NS days. YES, i did make noise but well.. call of duty, wad to do? SGT Jonathan, keep up the good work! thanks on behalf of my grandma.