Today, i learn a few more lessons in life after watching rambo 4.

• LIVE for nothing or DIE for something.
• When pushed, killing is as easy as breathing.

and i now understand why this show is M18. so much gore and violence!

Anyway, CNY coming. Still not sure if i shld get new clothes! even IF i wan to, nobody wans to go with me. haha! after that... Vday. the most hated day of the entire year. Go out, see couples, hate them! stay at home, TV keep wishing people happy Vday, hate it too! Go online, nobody to chat with! not even sure if gerwyn is on duty anot!

Jus now, went to her blog. so sad to see that she is looking for a valentine date. wif her calibre, a date is as easy as snapping my fingers! but somehow, i hope she would have a date. it's kinda like a way of making me "si xin".. den i'll be like talking to myself.. "people already move on and even got a date le. wad on earth are u doing? focus on building ur career path! with a steady career, u can give ur mom a good life & buy all the sports car in the world! ain't that a better choice?"

den...... deep down my heart, i'll be like "who on this world am i trying to kid?" haha.. hell lar. why tink so much? nt like u can do anything when she doesnt even care to give u a chance to even be friends! to tink tat she say she is faithless in me when i actually put my trust in her when she lied to me before. tats life bah.. full of ups n downs. i grew more mature after every relationships. i learn that my heart cant deal with another blow. it'll take much much more for another girl to enter my life once again. but this doesnt really matter anymore rite? any girl with the right mind would noe that i'm useless and no future in life. who would be willing to stick with me thru thick n thin? haha. maybe thomas? gerwyn? aiden? justin? bryan? jeremy? jiacai?

if u're reading this, i sincerely wish u good luck in finding a new guy tat will take good care of u. i'm nt being xu wei or sarcastic. take care of urself. -loves.