why must humans always be clouded by their own emotions?

why can't humans be more truthful to their own feelings?

why can't humans be more honest to people around them?

always assuming that what they decide to do for people around them is the best solution.
always doing things that they do not wish to do.


i've lied to myself about my own feelings. i've escaped and avoid to deceive myself. i've clouded my mind with emotions that i couldn't suppress. the more i try to suppress, the more hurtful i become with the words and action i produce. the more i try to suppress, the more obvious i've become to others.

I don't care if u don't care about me. like how u tell me not to do anything, i don't need you to do things to let me give up. just standing at one corner to know that you're safe is enough for me. i know you loathe me but this won't change anything about how i feel. I'll still be here, awaiting to be ur listening ears & to let u have a shoulder to lean on. I cant promise to nvr quarrel but i can promise that it'll definitely be at minimal.

Faith is a funny thing. it starts with none & it grows when trust is poured in. U've lied to me once and i've forgave you and continue to trust you. i've never lie to you. don't i deserve a chance to redeem myself at the very least?

"don't you think it is too late to say all these now?" i never saw it coming and never had a chance to amend before disaster strike. life is unfair? indeed. to me, i'll never think that it is too late. because it is always better late then never. you're the one who think that it is too late.

why am i so persistent, u ask?
only to things i care about.
only to things i feel attached to.
only to things tat is important that i hold to my heart dearly.

with a simple rule of living with minimal regrets.

But if my persistence bothers you so much, i deeply apologize as that's who i am. tell me, i'll not show my face when u're near. i'll restrict my blog so nobody will know.

Don't mind what my friends say about you. i'll always say it takes 2 hands to clap. they just cant bare to see me so taken down, demoralized, disheartened & sad. they just wish to help me get on with my life. i do not listen to people and blindly follow what they say. i've my own mindset & my own principle to follow by. my way of life. don't tell me what to do because i will decide for myself.

take good care of yourself. the world is not as simple and naive as you think.