I jus realise i forgot to continue on with the post yesterday. lol. oh well. let it be! =P

okay, today bro got pissed. dont wish to go into that. den i walk to my grandma's house. as expected, everyone got shocked cuz i actually walk there! haha. first round of mahjong, i won $50+. 2nd round after dinner, i lost everything. back to sqr one! lol. i did not lose my aunt's win so thats all right. haha =) this kinda things... i dont exactly like gambling. gambling for pleasure is okay but gambling for addiction is rather unhealthy. i would usually prefer not to play. depends on the mood i guess.. hahas.

hmm. people often hope that lives would be perfect. If life is really perfect, what purpose is there for human's existence? u'll be so perfect that u ultimately become more imbalance den you thought you wouldn't be. people always fail to understand that the beauty of life is simply the defects that people have and the mistakes that people commit. constantly strive for perfection, take note of the procress and enjoy. sure, u might be tinking "wad do u noe? u dont have defects that will cause u alot of problems". you're so wrong! i'm the almost perfect scumbag of the entire human race. at least, thats wad i see myself as, for now.
i've committed mistakes that i regretted.
i've done things that i knew they were wrong to do.
i've NOT do things that i knew all along i shld've done.
i would rather fall into the dark side den to show determination in overcoming my shortcomings.
typical scumbag, living in a world much better off den others. even as i'm typing all these, i'm feeling so ashame!! good thing is, i'm still feeling ashame and typing all these out, hoping i would be able to reflect upon myself.