hmm.. changed to one of naruto's songs...

i like this song a little more compared to others.

Yesterday, i feel that i shld stand up to my fears & issues. to tell the truth, i've been blocking my ex on msn & even create a group just for her called, "pple who i do not wish to see". haha. seems that it's a very stupid thing to do right? well. thats oso one way of saying that "love makes pple do silly stuff"... I've unblocked her but i've not remove her frm the group yet.. this is progressive training. hahas =P

last time, when i see her online, my mind would go nuts and start thinking n thinking. now, after i've decided that my friends are right about her. I don't exactly feel much anymore. I mean.. wad for care for someone who jus couldn't care anymore rite? pointless. i'm not exactly sure if she does have a boyfriend now but it seems like it.. so i shall assume that she has one. i hope she don't hurt him too much!! =X haha. i mean. gettin a new one when it's been only near 2mths or so ago.. haha.. but well. different pple got different needs and desires.. i'm nobody to judge her yup.. =)

frm my 1st to her, my 2nd. it took me near 3yrs... now the aftermath of a spoilt relationship is deeply carved in my mind. haha. it'll definitely take much more to overcome this scary scar. which is good i guess... won't spend much money & dont needa refrain myself frm speakin too often with other girls who i find, are much more cuter and sweeter den her.. lol.

When i go into a relationship, unknowingly, i refrain myself from talkin with other girls. almost near Zero. cuz i dont like to have too much misunderstandings because i dont like to explain alot because explaining is troublesome. so to prevent all these, i would rather not interact with girls too much.. but that doesnt mean i will purposely hide traces of me interacting with other girls. i will tell my other half even if she dont feel the need to. and of cuz, i dont see the need to hide my other half as well.. unless my other half wans to be hidden for certain purpose.

ultimately, its down to the feeling of security she is able to give me. cuz, it's no longer jus about guys givin sense of security anymore.. guys need securities from girls as well! how would u feel if u're been hidden away by ur other half? i would be thinking if she wans other guys to tink she is single? i would be thinking if i'm too shameful to be shown?

To me.. Love is like a key to the car which is like a relationship. using the key, u ignite the engine, the core of the relationship. maintaining the car will need to be shared by both parties from then on. When the engine faces problem, the driver needs to fix it up. but before that, the car needs to tell the driver by indicating on the panel. the driver of cuz, needs to be observant enuff as well, to notice problems with the car. i hope i could find the one for me in my lifetime.

i came online, without a topic to blog abt. end up, i saw her online and tada! hahas. sorry for being long winded. jus blogged wad was on my mind.

as my blog add says.... little thots in my mind =)