My dear walter...

We live in a universe bound by the "Laws of Attraction". As you said, negativity breeds negativity. I do understand all these negative thoughts you have in you. All the constant inner fighting among yourself in your mind. That you just cant seem to be yourself no matter how hard you try. All you feel is that weakness that is manifesting within you. Now, stop all these comments and keep them to yourself for now. By speaking about your negativity, you might affect other people as they might be influenced by you.

For now, simply let go of all these thoughts. Sounds hard? It's easy! Difficulty is determined by yourself. Next, stop trying & stop seeking! Stop trying because nothing is done when you try. There is only DO or DON'T. Stop seeking because the more you search for something you want, the more it'll elude you. There is no need to try to be yourself because you are you, there is nothing more to that. How can you turn an apple into an apple? Because an apple IS an apple to begin with.

There is nothing to do. Just be.
Do nothing. Be.
No climbing mountains and sitting in caves.
I do not even say "be yourself"
since you do not know yourself.
Just be.