okays. blogging time.

today's topic.... ME

Eversince few days back, i started to realise how much useless i've became. i constantly giving myself excuses to slug. i constantly find excuses to escape from reality. it's time i put these issues out & deal with them! problem solving time!!

1. Sleeping late at night. latest 0200hrs, earliest 0800hrs. insomia? i'm not sure.
2. Waking up b/w 1000hrs - 1300hrs. because of late nights.
3. Spending money like it drops from the sky. CNY is over! angpow money won't last! yes, i help zq with his event but the money earned is to cover the leather shoes and the black shirt i bought!
4. portfollio. when is the last time i held a pencil? i cant rmb. what did i draw? needless to say. i gave myself an excuse that audition is in april. now i'm tinking, can i really make it in my current state? what on this friggin earth am i doing? all the dreams... i am going to blow them up pretty soon!
5. odyssey. i'm driving him around yet lately, i've not been contributing to earn the right to drive him!
6. during gym sessions, i couldn't push myself to run (or at least jog) for 30mins or 4km! and i kept eating so much!

main point... I have lost my discipline. I don't lack discipline because I've lost all to begin with. I see all my peers around.....fire fighter, undergrads, dip holders, etc... i'm still holding an O's... readers of my blog, don't need to laugh at me because i'm already laughing so hard at myself, i couldn't breath properly...

yesterday night, i push myself to sleep at 0200hrs but i woke up at 1100hrs. if i wan to straighten out my life, i've to go back to the very basics. today, i'll limit myself to 12am. i WILL wake up before 8, ensure my grandma have her breakfast. wash up. go down to parents' office. i will complete as much task as i can & i will skip lunch & breakfast to clear my disgestive system. I remember what i blog today, i will carry them out. i will blog tomorrow to see if i've actually do what i plan to.

NO MORE EXCUSES! NO MORE SLUGGISHNESS!

It's time to NATO. Now Action, Talk Over.