oh my tian...

It's been a really krazy month. Brother going in for enlistment, maternal grandma fell down and paternal grandma caught the cough virus as well as myself. Got stung by a bee, broke my own toe nail.

Alot of people sees driving as a necessary skill to have. Alot of youngsters sees driving as more of pleasure than a necessary skill. I used to enjoy driving alot. The speed, the adrenaline, techniques to improve fuel consumptions and pleasurable driving experience for my passengers. Now, it becomes really tiring and taxing. Especially shuttling b/w home, grandma's house and hospital. I ran a few red lights already and it is obvious I find it hard to concentrate on the road.

Money money money. No money no talk. Money cannot buy happiness but happiness can merely exist without money. I need a new laptop or desktop. Especially when I'm in animation now. Just when I'm designing shirts, I get stung by bee. Of course I feel very sad for the bee. Much more sadder than my swollen finger which deny me the usuage of my pencil. Well, I just hope I can recover fast.

Studying in NAFA. Studying design. Studying what I want to do and be in the future. This has never been an easy road to go. I never get 100% support from my family. My mother whose words means the whole world to me, would often discourage me to do design yet encourage me to do what I like. Of course I do understand she is worried that I would not make a living from designing or animation but I do not want to regret not doing what I want when I'm on my death bed. I'm greatful to my sis for giving me a tablet as my present. that really helped me alot and it'll go a even longer way with this useful tool.

It's really really difficult when nobody is there to support the things I want to do. One minute telling me to go all out and pursue what I want to do, the next, encouraging me to quit and help her in her construction company.

I'm so tired. Tired of all the drivings and all the encouragement that I have to imagine as if it was there. Tired of taking care of prople who are trying to take care of me. Always putting others before self is such a harsh and difficult resolve.

actually I've so much things to say out and yet I don't know how to phrase them. I don't even expect anyone to understand what I've been typing. haha.

LIFE IS A JOKE. BUT IT STILL GOES ON...