031207 (5days to ORD)

ever got the feeling that your life no longer belongs to you? like you're not able to make your own decisions anymore?

the moment we're born to this world, we've already started to affect everybody's life around us. i'm not sure if everything happens at certain time is already being pre-arranged but, i sure do know that every actions and decisions one make, will make a difference in the lifes of everyone who are linked to that person.

now, my life is affected by my grandma and my uncle. buying meals everyday for grandma and fetching uncle home every night. trying to delay breakfast then buy brunch for my grandma instead. always hoping that my siblings would help me to settle my grandma's meal. i mean, it is our responsibility as her grandchildren lor. if it is cause i've a driving licence so i've to buy for her almost every meal right? i've stated my stand before, i can and i will not drive if this really bothers u guys okay? and i did not exactly wan to drive SO much alrite? do i look like a chauffer? cab driver? delivery man? at least ask b4 hand and say thanks after tat rite? and i do have my own life lor. i've places to go and friends to meet. dont lecture me and question me where i go, wad i do & how much money i spend ok? i use my own money i got from NS lor. since when did i keep probing you guys' private lifes? so now, from where i see, you all are trying to say that u guys can go out or choose to be lazy, while i cant?
next, fetching uncle is not my sole responsibility as well okay? i'm seriously stressing the fact tat i'm not demanding to NOT fetch uncle anymore ok? i jus need you guys to share my burden lar. got the kia rio and honda fit, not jus one honda odyssey ok? take turns can anot? i've said b4. i got my own life. u sat night go out, den i dont need lar? so am i suppose to sacrifice my life to chauffer uncle and aunty forever?

i've tried to voice all these problems to my mother b4, yet nothing is changing. siblings still settle grandma's dinner as n when they wan & cousin still fetches uncle n aunt as n when he wan/could. am i suppose to jus keep quiet? i'm tired. i know none of you all care... but dont force me off the wall. i'll get my licence revoke if i go nuts.

driving licence, a burden so heavy that i can't hold on much longer.. breaking down...